Catguin's Playground

When she called today, i was SHOCKED! Her voice did not change much but her tone did. If i remember correctly, she used to be serious, fun but also easily hurted. I remember how she said words like "cynthia dont talk to me le..." to another of my friends. I remember everything I did to her and everything we did together. Yes, i thought once I was in love with her (i was only 13 okay? -_- Im dumb) but now I realise, I have thought too much. I manage to gather my courage to apologize to her and the best part is that she said "Actually, I didn't realise it. And I didnt went to find it out. Cause to me that time, it does not seem to matter"

I was not heartbroken, I was just shocked and then realise how dumb I am. I have just confirmed my hypothesis (or shall I say my grandpa's?) that the word friend have two moons, there aint no two moons in this earth and they can never be 100% true to you. Dont start flaming me, I know how friendship counts and how important and true sometime friendship may be, but what i am trying to say is that they won't sacrifice or feel for you the same way your family would or your loved one would. They could be 99% true, (I have 2! One in America and One in Paramount) but they won't give it all to you. Or shall I say, the closeness will not be there?

I fell one burden lesser. One regret lesser. I feel good. I realise that people change, alot. And as I count the friends I have, i am thankful, namely Chin Hong, Chua, Andy, Wai Meng, Hon Tong, Khai Yuen, Eugene, Chu Ann, Jess, Alvin, Kelvin Lim, Ivan (consider 1/2 friend la), alex, Jian Shin, ADRIAN PHUNG and many others.

And today, I have gain another friend. 

And I expects flames from all the mean things I said. At the same time, I also wun expect anything as its RARE for any comment to reach my blog.